The New Petal & Primadonna

You know.. I love Heechul right? But I never consider myself as one of his ‘Petals’ until now.

I don’t know why really, but there’s something about him inside that’s unique and different. He’s one crazy kid indeed. His mind doesn’t work like others.. like I said, very unique. Today, I came across HeechulPetals (and thank you gomdori for translating) Heechul’s writing in his cyworld.

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異 愛 ( 이 애 ) – Different Love
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자.. 시작합니다..
Here.. Lets begin..

4月 4日..
그녀를 만났습니다..
I met her..
비 오는 날이었지만 그녀는 눈부셨습니다..
It was raining but she shone so brightly..
어두웠던 내 마음도 밝아졌습니다..
That my darkened heart also became bright..

4月 5日..
나는 내성적입니다..
I’m an introvert..
사랑합니다.. 어렵게 말을 꺼냈습니다..
I love you.. I said it with such difficulty..
아이같은 웃음으로 대신 말합니다..
You reply with a child-like laughter..

4月 6日..
행복합니다.. 그녀는 말합니다..
I’m so happy.. She says..
아름답습니다.. 그녀는 웃습니다..
So beautiful.. She’s smiling.
그녀는 나의 전부입니다..
She is my everything..

4月 8日..
그녀를 보는 시선들..
The way I gaze at her..
불안합니다.. 너무나도 아름다운 그녀가..
I’m worried.. that she who is so beautiful..
떠날리는 없겠지만.. 복잡합니다..
There’s no way she would leave but.. it’s complicated..

4月 9日..
나의 집에 초대했습니다..
I invited her over to my house..
미쳐버릴것 같습니다..
I think I’m going to go crazy..
그녀는 내 것입니다.. 내 것..
She is mine.. mine..

4月 10日..
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4月 11日..
눈은 뜨고 있지만.. 심장이 뛰질 않습니다..
Her eyes are open but.. her heart isn’t racing..
눈물을 흘렸는지.. 번져있는 마스카라..
Whether her tears fell or not.. her running mascara..
밧줄로 묶여있는 그녀의 몸..
Her body is wrapped with rope..
조금은 굳어있는..
It is a bit stiff..
아직은 흐르고있는..
The still flowing..
피(血)의 자국들..
trail of blood..

내 오른손엔..
In my right hand..

가위..
Scissors..

왼손엔..
Left hand..

그녀의 머리카락..
Her hair..

이건.. 사랑입니다..
This is.. love..
표현방식이 조금 다른..
A bit different form of expressed..
그런 사랑입니다..
That kind of love..

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날 개 (Wings)
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그대를 사랑할 수 없습니다..
I cannot love you..
난.. 사랑을 모르기 때문이죠..
It’s because I… don’t know what love is..

그대를 사랑할 수 없습니다..
I cannot love you..
가슴이.. 너무 아플것만 같으니까요..
I feel that my heart.. would hurt so much..

그대를 사랑할 수 없습니다..
I cannot love you..
자유로운 그대는.. 날아가버릴테니까..
Because you, who is free as a bird, might fly away..

하루하루 그대를 만난뒤..
After meeting you day after day..
그대를 그리며 잠자리에 들때면..
When I miss you and settle into my resting place..

불안하고..
I worry..
두렵습니다..
and I’m afraid..

언제까지..
Until when…
내게 그 미소를 보여줄런지..
will you show me your smile..
아무표정 없는 날 웃게 해줄런지..
and make me, who doesn’t have any expression, laugh..

이렇게..
Because of this..
그대를 사랑하지 않겠다 다짐하고..
I promised myself I wouldn’t love you..
내 마음을 부정하는 건..
The reason why my heart is in denial is because..

이미..
I already..
그대를 사랑하기 때문입니다..
love you..

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At first I taught, is this really Heechul? Is this the Heechul? The answer must be yes. Because I find that someone who has the feeling inside, but cannot express out their true feeling, usually writes out what they feel. Or write about something they’ve seen, heard, or something they’re passionate about. I find that Heechul is one of those people.

The first one.. Different Love, some people find that morbid? (What is morbid anyway? @_@) I find it.. different, just what it says, maybe Heechul is listening to too much Metals lol who knows. =] The second one, Wings.. that is very lovely <3 I’ve learned today that Heechul is very deep, and wise. So now, I’m an official petal. ♥♥♥ Heechul-sunbae, (yes I’m going to call him sunbae) ok dang, now I forgot what I was gonna say -____-’ Ok, Heechul-sunbae lives in his own world, and I want to explore that world. ^^ July 10th baby~ !! XDD

Now, I feel like I should share my love for my new favorite SuJu couple =]

DONGWOOK!!!!!

And a VERY competitive Kyuuuuuuuuu~ XD <333

(credit: nckiparke @ Soompi!! THANKS SO MUCH)

I’m CURRENTLY watching FT Island – Hangeul Island. I’M IN MAD DEEP LOVE WITH HONG KI!!!! Hong Ki-Ahhhhhhhh! But that does not mean I don’t love Changmin anymore. I will always love him, forevermore. ^^ Anyways, I’m not say happy with the boy’s recent hair. T_______T

Wonbin is in SERIOUS need of a hair-cut.. but he’s not the worst one here.

Jaejin!!!! Why is your hair like that? So puffy.. but he’s still not the worst.

NOOOOOOOO! JONGHUN! UN-CURL YOUR HAIR T_______T But it isn’t half-bad.. compared to the other members

And here’s the worst of them all.. MINHWANNNNNNNNNNIEEEEEEEEE!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYY?!!! Is that GREEN I SEE? O_o!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! Why the maknae? T_T

No and I did not forget Hong Ki.. how can I?

He looks so pretty!!!!!! The fact that he looks like a girl makes me love him!! I dunno why! But his eyes is so attractive!! -DIES- T____T And I especially LOVES his teeth, they are like vampire fangs! (and yes I do have a little obsession over vampires ^^) Wait wait, before I change the subject, WONBIN’S LIPS ARE TO DIE FOR.

Now back to FT Island – Hangeul Island.. Eng Subbed, In playlist, HERE. Be sure to thank cherriya for uploading it. x] -sigh- I have reasons to love Hong Ki.. he’s so random, like Changmin (sorry I just had to bring him up Dx). And look at himmmmm <3

THANK GOD HE STRAIGHTED HIS HAIR, not that I don’t like the curl but I like the straight hair more lol. =]

Happy Anniversary, FTI!

It’s already been a year?! So fast right. ^^

Anyways, their Japanese Mini Album was released yesterday, and it sounds FANTASTIC! I really really really love Hong Ki’s voice, and Won Bin’s too!

Download the whole album here!

Tracklist : individual songs download
01. Friendship
02. ミライジテンシャ (Mirai Jitensha)
03. Soyogi
04. Stars
05. A Song For You
06. F.T Island
07. Primadonna
08. Always Be Mine

Support them, anyone? I would buy it when I go to Thailand. Really. But if you’re under 18 with no credit cards.. like me, enjoy the album. It’s a great album, Hong Ki and Wonbin sounds really great. ♥♥

I really love ‘Always Be Mine’, I have it on repeat lol ^_^ And Soyogi, its MV is out, and it’s awesomeeeee!

FT Island waking up in Japan dorm : This is too cute! I just have to post it! Hong Ki got a SEXY BACK. And one MESSY bed head. XD Jonghun always look perfect, HOW IS THAT HUMANLY POSSIBLE?! Minhwan got caught putting on his shirt LMAO SO CUTE!!!!!!! He’s so skinny >_< LOL at Jaejin’s shirt! Hahahaha. Wonbin sleeps like me with iPod ^_^ Was Minhwan crying? BECAUSE IT WAS TOO CUTE!

Music ON! TV Kanfu – Jaejin
Music ON! TV Kanfu – Hong Ki
Music ON! TV Kanfu – Won Bin
Music ON! TV Kanfu – MinHwan

DORKS! Omg! There’s so cute! Hong Ki and MinHwan LMAOOOOO! I can’t seem to find Jonghun’s message though.. Minhwan sounds like a chicken XD

Hong Ki endorsing some clothing brand? XD

WHY IS HE SO CUTE?! >0<

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070608 FT Island, aims to be L’Arc～en～Ciel

(I don’t know what’s up with the title .. but why does Hong Ki’s face is reminding me of HYDE?!
Speaking of HYDE, I LOVE HIM! ^^ He’s older now but he’s still awesome!)

I’m REALLY caught up in FTI fandom right now! I’M LOVING HONGKI SO MUCH RIGHT NAO!!!

OMg omg ad;jfak;dfj;dk! I was re-watching their MVs. And -DIES- They have awesome MVs!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE LOVE LOVE ‘A Man’s First Love, Thuner + Only One MV’ !! I see really great actinggggg! The Romance Is KILLING ME! They’re really getting all mushy! GAHHH! I can’t stand Jonghun! BECAUSE, JUST BECAUSE HE’S TOO FLIPPING HANDSOME! He is He REALLY is, He is so smoking hot, and sexy in ‘A Man’s First Love’! He’s in suit, and kicking some asses, HOTNESS! Minhwan you’re so cuteeeeeee!!!!! He’s So Young! (.. I’m the one to talk ..) I wanna see more of Jaejin. And Wonbin is just GORGEOUS! Love him in ‘Until You Come Back’ MV ♥ Brotherly Love ♥ I’m making them my 2nd priority, on my ‘Things to Watch’ list Coming right after the Suju monkeys! Then it should be Big Bang, I haven’t catch up with them after that SMOKIN’ song ‘With U’ <3