One Last Cry..

I said One Last Cry..

But there’s always another cry.
Today, as I was walking through the market, July 19th, my last day. The rain slowly started in fall. Rain……
It always reminds me of tears, sadness, and separation. But on a sunny day, it could always mean tears too, but of joy, and celebration. But on this day, the dark sky, and solid black clouds, the morbid feeling.. it’s my last day. The ceaseless rain fell on my red eyeglasses.. red and water, I think of blood. The blood flowing through my body like it’s supposed to, when will it stop doing its job, when will my heart stop beating? Not until I have done everything I was born to do…

Suddenly, my stomach started hurting. I ran upstairs, thinking that it’s another food poison coming my way. But it actually was guilt inside of me. I’m guilty of pretending to be strong. I reached the bathroom upstairs when I was sure no one could hear me or know that I was there.. my tears started falling.. just like the rain. I didn’t want that day to come, another day that I have to leave the place that I love.
I was playing on the computer.. and telling my friends that I’m leaving tomorrow. One of my friend, she’s a great musician, said to call her, so I did. She played me various songs on her guitar. The touching lyrics were too much for me to handle. Ex…..
“เปิดออกมาดูโดยไม่ตั้งใจ ว่าจะได้เจอรูปเก่า
Opened it, unknowingly, that I will see those pictures

อยู่ในวันเวลาที่สดใส วันที่มีเราข้างกัน
In the good old days, the days we’re side by side

ภาพเดิมๆก็หวนมา เปลี่ยนเวลากลับไปวันนั้น
Old memories came back, turned back the time to that day

ใจก็เหมือนสั่นๆ เกือบลืมกันแล้ว
Heart trembles, almost forget it

ต่างเดินกันไปตามทางของใคร แยกไปค่อยๆไกลห่าง
Each walked their own path, farther away

อยู่ดีๆวันนึงก็จางหาย คลาดกันโดยไม่รู้ตัว
Then one day, we got lost without knowing

แต่เรื่องราวที่สวยงาม อยู่อย่างเดิมไม่เคยหมองมัว
But the good memories, still there, never fade away“

On the next day, it was time. I did not want to wake up. I will continued to be asleep forever if it means I get to stay. But not even a miracle can help me. Forty minutes before the departure time. My sister and I had to get in the gate for boarding. I tried, I really tried my best. I tried to hold back my tears.. I wanted to be stronger because there will be a time that I have to go through it again. I couldn’t stand seeing my grandmother’s tearful eyes. But I did it.. I did not shed a tear.. It was less than a nano second that it was about to fall, but I didn’t let my tears fall, I couldn’t. But later on… just now, as I watch Hana Kimi Japan, and I watch Mizuki leave for America, leave all her friends, and leave he one she love.. I couldn’t help but cry,, I let go of all my sadness during the past 3 days through a drama. Must be pretty ridiculous right? But not to me.. Mizuki taught me something.. Mizuki taught me to be stronger, and to face my fear. Arigatou!

And not only that, Mizuki also showed me how KAWAII Nagatsu is!! ~~ HOMO JA NAIIIII~

Let’s speak of HANA KIMI!! Japanese Version! <3333

Summary
Mizuki Ashiya, a Japanese girl in the U.S., one day sees the young athlete Izumi Sano compete in the high jump on television. She begins to idolize him, and decides to move to Japan to attend the same school as him. However, Izumi goes to an all-boys school, so Mizuki disguises herself as a boy to achieve her dream of being with her idol. — DramaWiki

I think all of them are good looking. DON’T EVEN SAY IT!
Let’s start with.. ……….. Oguri Shun as Sano Izumi.
He’s looks like a monkey.. Doesn’t he? He does to me, but he’s a cute monkey! ^^ I dunno, sometimes he’s really good looking but then he’s really weird looking. I guess we all have good sides and bad. ;P But you gotta love this guy when he’s drunk! <333
Well, why?
See for yourselves.
sdfal;sdjfa;lskdjfksldjfalsdjl~!!! Y desu ne??!!

Next! Ikuta Toma as Nakatsu Shuichi
I love this guy, BEYOND!! (not beyond the Dong Bang boys though ^^) He has the cutest/funniest expression! He’s sooooooooo cute!!! What I love the most is when he talks to himself, and when he thinks he’s gay! SO FUNNY! I mean you gotta watch this guy!! I’m gonna post his pictures just because I can.

Next! My new girlcrush; Horikita Maki!!!!! (Horikitty~ XD)
Maki-chan is a very cute girllllllllll~ She’s so cute I want her as my little sister! (I know I know she’s older than me!) I love when he’s smiles, she smiles like a new born baby! ^_^
She’s too cute !!!!!
(Next stop Kurosagi! I’m gonna watch it because Yamapi and Maki are in it <33333)
It’s been a longggggggggg time since I’ve watch any drama, -sigh- I forgot how it opens door to my creativity world! ^^

It’s 6:17 AM; I haven’t slept, I haven’t bathe. OMG, be back to edit. o_o

I’ll stop here. Because I got too lazy. I wanted to write about Shirota Yuu, the guy who played Sano’s competition (I could never remember the name) I wiki-ed him, and it says that he’s half Spanish. I was like AHA!! I knew he was half something! Because his lips are SO NOT Asian! Asians doesn’t have those lips. He’s quite gorgeous. =D (In the 2nd picture, I think that girl is related to him? She looks like a latino ^^)

I AM ONCE AGAIN A JAPAN LOVER!!!!!!! DDD I started to love K-Pop because of DBSK, and then I got much more into the other artists that I fell in love with Korean Culture. But deep down I still love Japan! They’re both are so much win. <3